Freedom?

I always thought that I am free.

Free to move...

Free to eat...

Free to talk...

Free to sleep...

Free to love...

And free to do whatever I want to do.

It took me some time to realize that those freedom that I mentioned were the limitations that I have. Limitation is like a prison that binds me to stay where I am.

Basically, humans have physiological limitations. Our body tells us what we have to do and we act according to our body's instinct. Such as we eat because we are hungry. We sleep because we are sleepy.

Humans are also Social Animals. We cannot live in this world alone. We always need someone to relate to and need someone to affirm us. And this need tells us that our freedom to love or make friends or look for relationships is caused by this psycho-social need.

So, are we really free? I don't know...

All I know is, as long as we know how to be detached with these needs then we are free...

Starting again

Right after I graduated college I am one of the first few in our batch who got a job in the media industry. My classmates said that i was lucky and they also said that they want my job. I worked as scriptwriter for three shows in a local cable channel. I could really say that my job was great! Everyday is a day to look forward. I don't just write, I also travel a lot (I write for a travel show). I also do extreme sports. I remember one time they forced me to go sky diving for an episode. I really said no. Before sky diving we also went scuba diving and yes, the experience was great but I almost lost my breath underwater that's why my dive master abruptly took me to the surface. I also interviewed great people and rubbed elbows with them (hahaha). I can't do all those things if I didn't have that job.

After one month and one week, I was able to produce five commercials. Produced two episodes of one hour travel show, two episodes of one hour sports feature and three biographies. I was also able to close a million worth concept. I could say that in one month time, what I have done was too much. I don't have any sentiments regarding the pay because I did not mind it when I applied for that job.

When I was still in college, my only wish for that moment is to graduate right away. I got bored at school and wanted to work already. And now, I always go back to school and sometimes ask my previous teachers to let me sit in their classes. I think that's the reason why I quit my first job. I tried to look for another job and found one. But its the same job just that in a bigger and more established network.

Before I could in the other network, I decided to go out of town for a vacation. I though it was just a vacation. When I came back to Davao, I realized that something is missing in me. That is why before I could start in my new work, I decided not to continue. I will be back in that place where I hope I could start again. I don't expect a life changing experience but instead, I emptied my self so that I will be able to absorb every new experience that I will encounter in that new place.

Sulat para sa iyo na boboto

Dear 2010 Presidential Elections' Voters,

Sana po ay pag-isipan nyong mabuti ang inyong ihahalal na presidente. ang ibig kong sabihin ay huwag niyong iboto si NOYNOY. Hindi lang sa rason na siya ay abnoy kundi dahil narin sa dahilang mawawalan ng saysay ang ilang taon nang ipinaglalaban ng mga magsasaka sa Hacienda Luisita. Alam kong hindi tayo mga magsasaka pero mapapatunay lang po ito na hindi niya kayang ayusin ang mga problemang sakop ng kanyang kapangyarihan bilang pamilya aquino, ano pa kaya kung buong Pilipinas na ang hahahawakan niya?

Opo, si noynoy po ay isang Abnoy. Sinong normal na tao ba ang hihingi ng basbas sa simbahan upang tumakbo eh siya din naman ang isa sa nag sulong sa Reproductive Health Bill? nasaan ang consistency mga kaibigan? Kung ibig nyo pong mamarapatin, nais ko po sanang mag bigay ng babala na hindi basta basta ang mga malalaking tae este tao na nakapaligid kay noynoy. Kung nanghihingi siya ng pondo sa mga malalaking negosyante para pondohan ang kanyang kampanya, dapat ho tayong matakot sa mga kapalit non kapag siya ay nanalo.

Sana'y huwag ho nating ihambing si noynoy kay obama dahil hindi ho galing sa marginalized group si noynoy. Isa po siyang elitista. kung ang makakapanalo lang pala sa kanya ang mga magulang niya, sana ay tumakbo naring presidente si KC Conception sa kadahilanang sikat din ang kanyang pamilya. Alam kong napaka babaw ng aking paghahambing subalit sa ganitong paraan po natin maiintindihan na wala pa siyang napatunayan sa kanyang sarili.

Sa pagboto nyo po ngayong darating na eleksyon, naway piliin po ninyo ang may angking kakayahan at pagmamahal sa karapatan ng bawat tao at pagmamahal sa kalikasan at sa bayan.

Sabi ho nila, "Ang hindi boboto ay walang karapatang mag reklamo". Higit ho akong naniniwala sa mga katagang iyon subalit wala ho akong magagawa kung tadhana na mismo ang nag utos na hindi ako makakaboto. Higit sampung libong kilometro po ang lau ko ngayon sa bayan kung saan ako narehistro, kaya hindi po ako makakaboto. Subalit huwag nyo lang po itong gawin para sa akin kundi para narin sa mga hindi makakaboto at hindi pa makakaboto.

maraming salamat po.

Umaasa,

Sprakatakfrak

Food and snot

I love to eat street foods such as fishball, kwek kwek, and many more. Last weekend, my friends and I went to divisoria to stroll along the narrow streets of divisoria. People where flooding. i almost lost my breath when i battled just to pass the sea of people. I don't know if i am claustrophobic or what, but i almost lost my consciousness while walking along that alley. Stampede will more likely to happen in places like divisoria but the funny thing is, even if it happens everyday, there is no history of stampede at the streets of divisoria. The congestion of people along divisoria moves like a trapped snot in your nose. it needs a little sneeze to move forward or you could just let it flow and wipe it with a tissue.

For the name of street foods, i will cross the ocean, soar the sky and CHAR!

UPDATE

I was away from my virtual world for about a month. Ewan ko lang kung bakit, di lang talaga siguro ako inspired. nag lag ang buhay for 1 fuck'n month. Now, I can say that I already have changes though konti lang. Buhok ko, gimik days koand even sleeping hours ko. One more, nabigo na ako sa inaakala kong pag ibig. Akala matitikman ko na ang pipniprito kong itlog, yun pala iba ang kumain. Well, buti narin siguro at nangyari yun, kasi, even if i failed, i regained our friendship naman eh. Katunayan, we went on picnic one evening night and talked a lot of things. Ayaw ko na sana siyang makita, kaso, how can i move on if di ko sasanayin ang sarili ko na makita siya every summer? Papalapit pa naman ang x'mas break.
Too much about it, well ahem ahem... mas napadali ang pag move on ko kasi meron akong nakilala. hahaha grabe... (kung alam mo, wag kanang maingay kung sino.) Well, di pa naman kami nag uusap nang harapan, di rin kami nag ttxt. Wala lang. hanggang sa mata ko lang siya. hahaha. well, if given a chance? WHY NOT!
Totoo nga talaga na walang perpektong tao sa mundo! everything has its butt este! but. hmm natatakot ako na baka hindi kami magka diniganpag mag uusap kami. pero ok lang cute parin xa!!! hahaha! mas naentice nga ako ng nalaman ko na may ganun pala xa. hahahay... kailan kaya??? kailan???

Pagbiya

COMA 110 PROJECT A STORY BOARD ENTITLED...

I'm coming back

Matagal ko nang kinalimutan ang hilig ko sa photography, hindi dahil wala akong camera kundi nawalan ako ng tiwala sa mga kuha ko. Now, I'm taking up meda 102 which discusses photography. Wala masyadong tao ang nag aapreciate ng pictures ko sa school ko ngayon, di tulad nung sa high school pa ako. Kaya naman parang nawalan ako ng hilig na ipursue ang dahilan ng pag kuha ko ng kursong communication arts. Nakaka miss din pala pag may nagpapaboost ng confidence mo. kahit simpleng "nice", "cute" lang, masarap paring pakinggan. Wala nang puwang ang mga papuri para sa akin ngaun dahil dito sa pamantasan ko, marami nang magagaling.

Kamakailan lang nagkaroon kami ng photo exhibit. Graded ito kaya obligatory mag submitt. Nakakatuwang isipin na naka place ang dalawa kong pictures.

3rd place ang picture na to entitled Hopia, Mani, Popcorn



"Shiplag" 6th place


Ang sarap isipin na napili ang dalawa out of one hundred twenty pictures na kasali sa exhibit. nakahilera ko pa ang kampyon sa katatapos lang na Petron Arts photography competition.